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There was a point in my life that I thought if I make a certain change in my life I would never be in another relationship. I never felt good enough. Boys never asked their friends who I was. I never stood out in a crowd as the girl a boy just had to have. I was never seeked out by a boy. I was always fixed up so I wouldn't be that awkward third wheel. I always thought because of that that I was never ever going to be good enough for anyone. I was never going to be funny enough, pretty enough or smart enough.

Then, after waiting many years I found Patrick. He made me feel beautiful. He opened doors for me (which I had never had before. He is a real gentleman). He makes me laugh and I make him laugh. He listens to what I have to say. Even if it is corny. He looks past my terrible spelling and how I can not pronounce certain words because my broken tongue. He does all the things I was never given before. He makes me feel like I mean something. He is with me because he wants to be with me. Not because I was a charity case. He still gives me all the butterflies he gave me 3.5 years ago. I am totally and completely in love with him. He is and always will be my Patrick. :)

Our Bear got his wiggles out.

Have you ever had a day that would change your life? Something happen to you that you would never forget? We that was our past weekend. It all started on Saturday. Holden and I went to some neighborhood garage sales with my mom and sister. I was hoping he would nap in the stroller, but that did not happen. So once we got home he laid down for about a half hour. Then it was up to go again. We went with Pat's mom, sister and Lottie to Pat's cousins baby shower. Once we got there Holden started to run around. He started getting sleepy so Nina rocked him to sleep. Or atleast tried to. Once she couldn't get him to sleep I took over. I had a no go, so Pat's mom took over. When she was holding him he started to shake. He was having a seizure. I thought he was choking and started to yell for help. I yelled for people to call 911. I don't remember much after that. I blacked out. My baby, my life was lying limp on the ground. Thank god there was a nurse there to take care of our guy. I just remember them yelling for me telling me is okay and to come talk to him. Pat was called and he arrived in a matter of minutes. The ambulance came and took us to the hospital. Once we got there they told us that it was from a fever he had getting too high. (There are a lot of details I left out. It is for the best. I probably would cry.)

Talking about it gives me goosebumps still. I am hurt that the people I thought I new would care about my son and ask me if he was ok. I know we posted a lot on Facebook about his condition, but a simple comment to my face would be nice. But a lot of people don't have Facebook and new about it. And none of them asked Pat or I about him. I thought it was just human nature to ask. I guess not. I am glad we have the people we have in our lives. The people that care about and love us. I feel like I couldn't thank the people that helped out enough. They rock!

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I have been absent from the blog for awhile. And for that, I am sorry. But I feel that last month was very very busy for some reason. But when I think of it now, it wasn't. There were very few play dates, trips and dinners. I didn't take many pictures. I left the camera at home or forgot I even had it. July was just a mess. But then next couple of months are busy. Very very busy. We have Dr. appointments and weddings to attend and roller coasters to go on. Our appointments book is packed. Plus on top of all of that I am trying to come up with something to peddle. As always. I have to make some side money. Like all Americans I am wanting just a little more. But I can't take on a part time job. Just not in my cards. Eh, one day I will think of something. One day.

Holden and daddy.

Holden, Daddy and Lottie

(If you carry one you must carry the other...Right?)

Brent and Lottie

Pick me up!!!

He fell asleep after a fun and exhausting day with Aunt Nina, Brent and Lottie.